Things are insane right now. The world is being turned upside down and shook. At least that is how it feels to me.
The uncertainty, mystery and severity of this evolving pandemic has created abrupt changes to how we live and interact. The way things were before is a memory, not yet blurry. Still in the forefront of many of our minds.
The situation has given me much pause and forced me to think about life. Now that I am stuck inside my house where it is safer, I have thoughts of what I should have done when I could do them. I just wanted to share them in this post.
I wish I would have gone to the library
Sounds boring right? Well to me, it is not. Books are my happy place, the safest place for me to hide. I barely went pre-pandemic and this was a mistake.
I should have taken my son with me and immersed ourselves in literature. If I had done that, I wouldn’t be kicking myself for not doing it now.
I wish I would have taken my son to the kid-friendly places around town
My 5 year old has a language delay and needs some social skills work. It would have been great for him to be around other children around town at fun places such as parks (more often), bounce house places, trampoline centers, the nature center and the children’s museum.
I can’t help feeling like a bad mother that I did not do this and probably won’t ever be able to now.
I wish I would have walked around the mall
I am a homebody, but I do like being out in public occasionally. Although I am not big into shopping, I have thought about how fun it would be to just stroll around the mall in my town. Just looking at random things and burning some calories through walking around.
This will most likely never happen. I have a strong feeling that malls will be no more after this pandemic gets a lot better/ends.
I wish I would have learned how to do my hair
Maintaining my locs is not easy for me. Even though I have a lot of time to learn how to do it now, it would have been nice if I learned how to do it a long time ago. The transition to this new way of living, would have been a little easier had I known how to do my hair myself.
Who knows if I will ever be able to see a hair stylist again. That means I will have to keep trying to do my own loc maintenance, be completely free-form indefinitely or cut them all off!
I wish I would have started my daycare business back up sooner
What I really want to do in life (freelance writing) is simply not happening and probably never will. If I would have just bit the bullet and started doing daycare again sooner, I would have saved up enough money so that we would be in better shape right now from a financial standpoint.
I am unable to make my daycare business work due to this pandemic and do not know when or if I will be able to start up again. It sucks.
Hindsight is 20/20
I can think and reflect on these things, but I can’t go back now. All I can do is move forward in life and adapt to all of the changes that are happening around me.
While I feel a great deal of unease at this point…a new normal is coming. I need to accept this and figure out how to make life work for me.
Are there any things that you wished you would have done/done more of before the pandemic started?
If anyone reading this is struggling, don’t hesitate to message me. We are all in this together. Lets weather this raging storm!
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