I was cleaning out my closet and I came across a lot of things from my past (okay not that long ago!). Instead of continuing to clean and organize I found myself just sitting in the middle of the huge pile I made. Memories came flooding in and paralyzed me.
2010: Back to health
This workout DVD pictured above was the start of a turning point in my life. I had just come off of a years worth of disordered eating and exercising. The anorexic voice was still there in my head but it was slowly being shoved away by a newer, healthier voice.
I did not always feel like walking to the fitness center at the college so I decided to do this DVD in my dorm room. From seeing the recommended weights of the dumbbells I thought it was going to be really easy. I was surprised at how wrong I was.
In this workout DVD there are full body and upper/lower routines to choose from. The weights are to be from five to twelve pounds. I ended up doing the full body workouts three times a week for a couple of months using eight and twelve pound dumbbells.
Yes, I know that is not very much weight!
I realize that lifting heavy weights is a wonderful thing to do. However, this was still a great workout that I would totally recommend to other people. I can honestly say that I did get more arm and leg definition doing it.
This is great for someone who wants to work out at home and has a few dumbbells laying around. Do not expect any cardio and a happy, chipper trainer though. She is just there to make sure you get a great workout in.
Maybe I should buy more of her DVDs and make a three month routine out of it? That sounds like a good idea!
Cue the tears
Just seeing this DVD made me well up in tears. A lot of the visions from nine years ago came back to me. It was the time I took my health back. The time I broke free from the disorder that kept me in its strong grasp.
The good and bad memories that came back while I was staring at the cover are important. They are a part of my past and now I have moved forward.
I was feeling lost in life these past few months but finding the DVD filled me with hope and positivity. It showed me that I can do whatever I set my mind to. I have worked hard to get to where I am today so any sense of failure should be sent packing.
If you are reading this and you have been feeling awful about yourself lately, better days are ahead. Trust me. If you need extra help outside of yourself, then make sure and get it. Sometimes it is hard to get going in the right direction but you can get there.